Friday, July 16, 2010

everything's c h a n g e d

i knew tht the second i decide to let u out of my life, evrytg will change
& it has


my list of things to do is now all canceled out(thx to him) :


killing my brain cells to plan surprises for him .. 
breaking my finger skin to practise the "it" for him  .. 
genting with him  ..
ice city .. 


maybe its a good thing?
save my time , brain cells , & money .. zzz
can put them on my studies now (say ony la~ hahs!)
hmm.. its not easy getting used to a sudden change,but i think im doing alright
thx to my beloved babes & dudes who has been there for me =] muahs . love u all 



[lately's] ...

our class T is gone T_T
because its too expensive.. her her.. i liked the class T soo much

watched the drama 偷心大圣PS男 xD N I C E !!
but onyl until chap18.. chap19 not out yet.. gota w8 for it 
faster faster publish pls~~

im getting my new BB Storm soon =P
THANKS DADDY ^^ hehe
happy~

abt tht dress in NICHII..maybe i'll go bk n hv a look next week? but if its not there then..i guess its fate =)
the polaroid camera...hmm..wanted to buy it at first to capture t h e   m o m e n t s with him,but now tht there is no more h i m ,i guess i can save back the rm265 =p hehe

lately evryy9 also sleeping aft 1am  0.0
gosh~ my panda eyes r comin out , but my pimples r goin away x) yes!!
hope i dun fall sick.. or it will be such a waste.
looking forward to weekend. have lots of plans goin on =D hope they will be great ^^

went to Taylor's University College ytd.. i liked the facilities & all. n they have the courses tht i want..
but now im kinda torn apart between both.. Interior Design / Mass Comm. 
i enjoy both, n would do well in both.. but just balancing out which one can lead me to a better n brighter future =p
hahs! talk like sp pro.. actually total noob. lol
after tht,went for lunch at MED,subang .. the food there ranking 46/100 ba~
but Snowflakes was definitely 80/100 xD
loved it soo much
healthy, yummy, looks great too .. hehe =D wana go again x) go to the pavilion one ^^

thts all i guess.. just some randoms abt mua life~ hope evrytg will get better n better..
i love you all ♥ 



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hEart.2hEart

是我没勇气还是。。?

好久没把坏心情写在部落格了
粉红色的那本不能写了
你做给我的那本也不能写了
所以  只好写在这咯


你送我的每一样东西   我都收藏起来了  可能我不想每天都看到有关于我罕你的回忆吧。。
你送我的纪念品我也没打开
眼看着那盒子  贴着 [爱] [回忆] [永恒]  这三个字。。不知不觉地说:林俊豪,这世上根本没有永恒的爱。。。
很奇怪吧。。我也不知道为什么。。我始终也没办法鼓起勇气把盒子打开
可是这种感觉又不像是缺乏勇气    反而稍微像根本不想知道里面是什么
因为心里想,不管里面藏的是什么,现在的我们之间根本不会有任何的改变
不知道是我害怕看见里面所藏着的东西? 还是我根本就对那份礼物没兴趣。。
或许你说的都是真的  但我依然因为你而对 [真爱] 这个东西失去了信心。。
甚至连跟别人之间的对白都开始派侧这两个字了
你对我的影响真的很大  我也为了你改变不少  但我始终还是做不够  付出太少  少到让你觉得我没拿出真心来对待你
 。。。。
或许有一天,我会再次把那份纪念品握在手里。。拆开盖子
但只怕等到到时。。全部已经太迟了。。。


你说如果是真的觉得对不起就不会在网上让全世界的人看到。。
但这是你独自的想法
对我而言,把我的话让给全世界的人看到就代表了我最纯真的真心
要让全世界的人都作证
对不起,我让你觉得我不是真心的抱歉
但我还是会继续过我的生活  做我想做的 尝试我想试的 罕研究我想知道的
我会继续走下去因为时间是不等人的残酷现实
所以我也不能那么轻易的让它走失
不可否认,我偶尔也会想起你  可是我想起你的时候却不像之前那种想念的想 而只是单纯的回想起。
这是代表我成功脱离了依赖你的日子吗?
如果是的话那我真的还蛮佩服我自己的。那么短的时间内可以学会远离一个人,同时在过程中把微笑挂在脸上
我很感谢支持罕安慰我的家人罕朋友们
可能对你们来说,帮我只是亲友之间该做的事,但对我来说却存着很大的意义罕感激
我想在此说一声 ‘谢谢, 我爱你们’



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hEart.2.hEart