its unexpected what may happen in a day,
what may reveal itself,
what may come to past.
but its always the worst,
when you find out the truth,
the hurting truth.
where you find
all that u once believed was just a fairytale made up,
that reality is not as what it seems.
it hurts,real bad
but nothing can be done about it,
only acceptance,
whether you like it or not,
because the truth cant be changed.
it can only be gotten used to.
it hurts .. when you find out
the person you love,
the person who created you,
the person who raised you up,
the person whom you looked up to,
suddenly comes crashing down like stumbling blocks.
their respect is lost,
ppl stay away from them,
ppl look down upon them,
ppl shun them out.
because of the wrong they did;yet stil trying to push the blame to someone else.
you feel so filled with anger,disapointment,grief..
you want to seek justice for the ppl who were hurt,
who were taken granted for.
but yet,
you stil love that wrong person
and just cant believe what they did was true.
the truth is painful,
its confusing.
it can make you numb,it can make u strong,
it can bring downfall to some;and success to others.
the truth is unexpected.
a person uses bigger lies to cover up the smaller ones.
its never ending like a chain.
mixed feelings cause u to lose ur judgemental skill.
you love both sides.
you dont know how to accept the truth,
how to believe the truth..
i dont know how to accept the truth..
i dont know what i should do if it were really the truth..
i dont know..
what i would do after finding out it really is the truth..
so God help me
give me your guidance
your mercy..
i pray.. amen
from my heart -- ann
